So another day has gone by. What have I accomplished? Well today has felt like a very productive day for me. I finally got Andrew a job. He's been trying for so long and I pulled some strings and now he's employed. I train him on Saturday.

I haven't had a smoke all day, I really want one, but thats probably cause I smoked a bowl, I tend to crave smokes then but I also get rid of the craving for the feeling of inhaling. I like the smoking aspect. Not the taste or anything else. Just inhaling. I've had the patch on all day. It's sorta working. I haven't caved in yet so thats a bonus.

I don't know what all this means. I've fallen so hard for someone. I loved him so much but then he started dating this girl. Since then the relationship with her has ended, and my own friendship with him is slowly building itself up. She always hated me and pretty much forced me out of his life. I told myself I was over him but since he has come back everything doesn't suck so much. I just don't know why. What does this all mean? And the way he talks to me. I don't know if he does it to just tease me or what. He's told me multiple times that he was in love with me but he just knew it could never work. Whatever happens I just want him to be really happy. He's the most beautiful when he's laughing and smiling. His eyes light up like the dark sky. Anyways I'm rambling. I think were hanging out this weekend and getting intoxicated! ALWAYS FUN! Tis grand.