Ok. So I'm smoking again, I ran out of patches and I can't afford them right now... maybe on Wednesday, I also need to find something to supress my appetit, I can't stop eating when I'm not smoking, I already have enough weight I want to loose, quitting smoking is not going to help that. I just got back from the store. When I was there my mother called. She is rather bitchy today, I hate when shes bitchy sooo much. Oh well, it will pass, my brother and his family are coming tonight so she should be fine then. She's probably bitchy cause she's cleaning and just woke up. BLAH.

I want to hang out with Andrew but I don't think it will happen. I get to spend pretty much all day with him tomorrow anyways. If I we don't end up doing anything it won't really matter I never really do anything on the weekends anyways, I keep doing stupid shit and that turns me off from really doing much besides sitting at home and watching anime.

I keep pushing myself further and further away from my friends. They annoy me a lot at times. Well most of them. I just need to focus on other things in my life right now, and a lot of my friends just bring me down and distract me from that. I'm not the person I want to be, but I plan on working on me.

My goal for this weekend is to clean my room and maybe get my bed set up, I need my room cleaned first, I'm in the process of clearing out the clutter that has accumulated and then I'm going to unpack some things that have been packed since I moved back in last March. I've been putting it off since then. I'm not suprised it hasn't gotten done though. Partying every weekend and such will do that to you.
Corey